OH CANADA PART 2

Not sure if I will be doing two part posts again, so much seems to happen between one and the other, especially since I interrupted them!  But more Sooke pics because Sooke is rad.  See below.

I’ve been having a hard time at work.  Again.  I’ve been in the same industry for 10+ years and I seriously can’t understand how it’s been so long.  I’ve never felt like it suited who I am.  Now, I am sure that it doesn’t.  For so long I’ve felt like if I just do this…it will work out.  Today I feel convinced that no, it won’t work out.  I will always be square peg trying to bang myself into a round hole at work.  I do not fit there.

But one must eat too, and one’s child must eat first.  I have been talking with my sponsor about different options and need to speak about it with my parents.  I’ve been looking at yoga jobs.  It would be better to have a job before I quit, but I’m not sure if that will happen.  I have never in my life quit a job without having another one lined up.  Actually I may have, but it’s been a very long time.

I picked that quote to put in the title on my blog because I feel like such a big theme of my life, my job, and my income directly correlates with who I am as a person.  I taught yoga again today and still don’t feel like I’m in the best mental space.  One thing that cancels out any negativity is my huge desire to help someone learn how to do yoga and love it.  I’m so grateful for the opportunity to teach for free once a week.  It’s teaching me so much about how to be a teacher.

I went to a meeting after a week or so of not going to one and got called on to share.  My share was a hot mess.  I wish I could have been more spiritual.  I wish I could have shared more about all that is happening.  But what came out, came out.  I had a bunch of people come up after me and really ask me about myself and my life.  That felt really good.  This is why I love AA.  I felt stupid after that share, but like they used to say in Long Beach, worry about saving your ass, not your face.  I’m planning on a bunch of meetings this week and that will be very good for me.  I’ve been having resentments creep in and have been not wanting to get rid of them.  Dangerous for an alcoholic.  Whatever someone else does is not a reason for me to get drunk.

New chapters up on Wilsonville Writes.  Such a surprise to me how much I am enjoying this process.  I get to write about a Bread Cat this week!

See more of Sooke>>>

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DSC02757 DSC02758 DSC02763 DSC02764 DSC02770 DSC02771 DSC02828 DSC02836 DSC02840 DSC02844 DSC02845 DSC02849 DSC02851 DSC02852 DSC02854 DSC02855 DSC02857 DSC02860 DSC02875 Above:  the spirit bear.  I got to attend the farmers market in Sooke, it was awesome. DSC02876 DSC02877 DSC02878 DSC02884 Getting on the ferry at 6am was not fun, but it made for some very pretty early morning light. DSC02886 DSC02888 DSC02890 Back to Port Angeles and US soil.  I was day dreaming and taking pictures with H in the carrier.  When we docked, we scurried down below and everyone was already in their cars!  I even made the car behind me wait (for like 2 minutes) while I buckled H in.  Really, I guess I don’t mix well with ferries.  It’s the vata in me.  Head in the clouds.

Back to the job thing, is it possible that I may just have to take the plunge and make a decision on faith?  Everything AA has taught me says no.  But AA has also taught me to believe in myself, set boundaries, and realize my worth.

I will pray.  We will see…

So much peace and love to you all.

& namaste.

Published by Liz Brower

I've practiced yoga since 2006, I stumbled into a class at my local gym. I didn't really "get" yoga, I wanted to do all of the poses to the max, I didn't focus on breathing, and I was very competitive. A year later I quit smoking and my mom purchased a three month unlimited to a local studio. I fell in love with yoga! Plus the metaphor was strong, my lungs began to repair, I could take really deep inhales without coughing! I later began to go to a free outdoor yoga classes in downtown Long Beach, CA that was also affiliated with a donation based studio. Yoga was fun, affordable, accessible, and outside! I loved it. I started practicing at home by myself. I started meditating. Right after I found the classes at the gym stopped drinking alchohol. My sobriety and yoga have intertwined ever since. They compliment each other amazingly and I am so grateful for them both. I stopped practicing yoga after getting pregnant and being caught up with the taking care of a newborn in 2013/2014. When he was 9 months old I realized that I really wanted to redirect myself back to yoga. I also had the seed planted in my mind while driving home from Christmas break, why don't you go do a yoga teacher training?! I started practicing yoga at a local studio and began scouring the internet for a teacher training program. I found Three Sisters Yoga, a lovely program, based out of NY & PDX. I was more than motivated to teach, I started teaching some free yoga in the summer of 2015 at a local park. I continued after that with an internship at the same studio I had signed back up with at the beginning of the year. I quit my day job. I hit the pavement, scouring for yoga gigs that would hire a newbie. I found a job and began to teach! Now I am navigating the great balance of being a single mom, a yoga teacher, and doing my best to trust my higher power with my future. I love to teach and practice vinyasa, but also know what it's like to be drawn to slower types of yoga due to injury or body type. I feel a special affinity for yoga new comers and like to teach practice at all different levels. Thank you for taking time to read a little more about me and I wish all of you the best in your own individual yoga practice. ~Namaste!

One thought on “OH CANADA PART 2

  1. Big decisions are tough. I’m kind of inclined to wait until I feel secure. But I am always inspired by people who make their dreams happen in more faith based ways.

    Yoga is so wonderful. I teach one night a weeks, and volunteer one class a week at the local recovery centre. Plus, I sub at a studio when they need someone. In September I will add a class at the y.

    I have a regular, full time job. But I know yoga is my future. And I completely understand you joy with bringin it to others. It is truly a gift.

    Stillness and peace
    Namaste
    Anne

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