I began my apprenticeship with a local studio which included a 30 minute audition.  I was a fan of just getting a yoga gig and running with it, but this apprenticeship has been the bee’s knees so far.  Don’t know the difference between something?  Ask a yoga teacher.  Confused about sequencing?  Ask a yoga teacher.  Wondering how to teach different levels at the same time?  You guessed it.  Ask a yoga teacher.  I also get to go to all of my mentor’s classes which is awesome because why?  I love yoga.  I still do.  There are many, many things in my life that I’ve started and stopped, but 10 years later yoga isn’t one of them.  I’m sure someday I will get disillusioned by it, or need a bit of a break.  Before I walked into one of the sessions last week my head said to me, go hard.  What’s that about, I’m not some type of pro athlete and I’m pretty sure I would have formally made fun of someone who uttered that statement.  I just want to put in the work it takes to become a yoga teacher.  I guess you could say I’m motivated.

But of course fears and doubts still plague me.  What ifs pop up in abundance in my mind at different times.  The baby weight is still abundant in spots (when do I have to just call it plain old weight again?).  I have moments of blank sheer panic when I’m teaching.  That statement my master teacher so timefully shared during training rings my ears raw, I’m enough.  I wonder.  Am I?

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The mentor teachers have been fabulous.  I come to them with all of my questions and concerns.  They return with deep compassion.  So, so far good.  Hard but good, of course they only way something is when it’s worth trying for.  I taught free yoga yesterday and already see a huge difference in where my focus is.  I made mistakes and they felt a little softer too.  I’m silently verbalizing sequences in my head constantly while driving, or while falling asleep at night.  I’m to teach the last 5 minutes of a class (an actual class!) tomorrow.  Baby steps.  It wasn’t long ago that I mentioned a great fear of auditioning at an actual studio.  Fears are meant to be walked (or crawled) through.

See pics of rain, early morning putzing, and apple picking above.  One of my friend’s had a whole bucket of apples (while taking care of a newborn!) by the time I had just a couple.  And yay, more RAIN.  Another week of apprenticing, mothering, and putzing lays ahead of me.  I wish you all an abundant and peaceful week.

~Love & namaste.

Published by Liz Brower

I've practiced yoga since 2006, I stumbled into a class at my local gym. I didn't really "get" yoga, I wanted to do all of the poses to the max, I didn't focus on breathing, and I was very competitive. A year later I quit smoking and my mom purchased a three month unlimited to a local studio. I fell in love with yoga! Plus the metaphor was strong, my lungs began to repair, I could take really deep inhales without coughing! I later began to go to a free outdoor yoga classes in downtown Long Beach, CA that was also affiliated with a donation based studio. Yoga was fun, affordable, accessible, and outside! I loved it. I started practicing at home by myself. I started meditating. Right after I found the classes at the gym stopped drinking alchohol. My sobriety and yoga have intertwined ever since. They compliment each other amazingly and I am so grateful for them both. I stopped practicing yoga after getting pregnant and being caught up with the taking care of a newborn in 2013/2014. When he was 9 months old I realized that I really wanted to redirect myself back to yoga. I also had the seed planted in my mind while driving home from Christmas break, why don't you go do a yoga teacher training?! I started practicing yoga at a local studio and began scouring the internet for a teacher training program. I found Three Sisters Yoga, a lovely program, based out of NY & PDX. I was more than motivated to teach, I started teaching some free yoga in the summer of 2015 at a local park. I continued after that with an internship at the same studio I had signed back up with at the beginning of the year. I quit my day job. I hit the pavement, scouring for yoga gigs that would hire a newbie. I found a job and began to teach! Now I am navigating the great balance of being a single mom, a yoga teacher, and doing my best to trust my higher power with my future. I love to teach and practice vinyasa, but also know what it's like to be drawn to slower types of yoga due to injury or body type. I feel a special affinity for yoga new comers and like to teach practice at all different levels. Thank you for taking time to read a little more about me and I wish all of you the best in your own individual yoga practice. ~Namaste!

5 thoughts on “I DREAM IN YOGA

  1. I dream in yoga too.
    I think having a teacher mentor would be awesome
    I don’t have that. I am just accepting experience is the answer.
    I teach yin weekly and have gotten into a nice groove there.
    But when I teach hot flow I am less comfortable.
    I asked an experienced teacher for help and have decided to stick with the same class for a while. I was trying to change too much. And it was tiring and confusing.

    I love yoga too.

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    1. I think you are wise to do what you feel strong about. I’m not sure about teaching hot yoga, that would be a challenge for me. And experience is an awesome teacher, I hope to be there too soon!


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