I had forgotten last post to write about how I have been randomly (and not so randomly) gifted three pairs of yoga pants! One kind of ‘silly’ thing I let go of in 2015 was an old black pair that fit me just right until they didn’t any more. I had been sewing all the holes in them for a while. When my friend came to visit a couple weeks ago (she reads the blog and saw my post about the pants) she brought me a brand new Lululemon pair which I have since only taken off after sternly reminding myself that they will last way longer if I only wear them to yoga. The are soft. They are comfy. They fit perfectly. And my other yoga buddy gifted me two pairs she had outgrown, one I am wearing below. Thanks friends & Universe!
In other news, we have all been S I C K (we are now all better). Sickness is the worst as a mom because you do that instant mental scramble of wondering if it’s worth it to go to a place where you know people are sick (which is always pretty good odds!), or who will take care of your kid if your normal babysitters are unable to. I don’t want to be shut in all day because I’m scared of getting sick and then I hate being shut in all day because we are sick. I definitely fail when it comes to slowing down for a while. I refuse basically to slow down. But when your kid ONLY wants to lay on you 24/7 what other choice do you have? We were pretty much camped out on the couch for DAYS:
I broke down one day with my mom and cried. I still have such a hard time when things come out sideways. I don’t like crying. I don’t like not having it all together. I’m not only dealing with complete inactivity, I thought, but now my desire for perfectionism is rearing it’s ugly head! I was grateful to meet with my sponsor the next day and unravel to her. Seasons, times, set-backs, up hill, down hill, it’s all tiny, medium, or large chunks of life we reside in. How I choose to deal with life varies. I know it helps if I live just one day at a time. I got better, I went back to meetings. Some people came up to talk me after the last meeting I went to. I thought, am I in Long Beach? It felt good. I felt a part of. I leave meetings early sometimes so I can put H to bed. I received texts and calls, are you okay? I saw you leave the meeting early.
And H and I were able to start taking our walks again. Just taking a short walk really resets our day:
I’ve come up with a new mantra for now:
I have enough.
It’s been giving me a lot of peace. Take it if you need it.
Yoga is awesome! People come to my classes! I am a yoga teacher! I love it. I am grateful for it.
Oh yeah, and I got on the sub list at Escape to Yoga in Sherwood, OR! Woo-hoo! I’m so excited to teach there and be a part of that studio! I’m already signed up for some March dates. Very exciting, a lot of work I put in, and now it feels goooooood.
Sending out peaceful vibes to you all.