A PARTY, SOME FRIENDS, AND TOO MUCH SUGAR

We are such complicated creatures.  We have so many layers and long buried memories and old pangs of hurt.  When I came to AA I was scared to enter a public place like a coffee shop.  I was scared everyone was looking at me, that they knew about that tangle of darkness inside of me. Continue reading “A PARTY, SOME FRIENDS, AND TOO MUCH SUGAR”

A NEW SEASON

The days are getting longer, it’s been sunny here the last couple days, and trees are in bloom!  Early Spring or global warming?  I guess it depends on which way you’re looking at it…I don’t remember all of the crazy gorgeous blooming trees, that look like flower bombs have gone off on the side ofContinue reading “A NEW SEASON”

A BEER AND A MESS

The Astoria trip started rough.  The drive over was peaceful enough, my parents headed over earlier with H.  I drove separate because I had to work. We checked in and walked over to a local pub/restaurant to eat, we were all hungry.  H included, I sat down in a chair next to a plastic skeletonContinue reading “A BEER AND A MESS”

SINCE HE CAME

This time last year I was pregnant.  This time last year I think I lived a very luxurious lifestyle, sleeping in until 8 or 9, venturing into Portland for prenatal yoga classes, stopping by various french or vegan bakeries after yoga.  My biggest decision was whether I wanted the vanilla cupcake or the chocolate chipContinue reading “SINCE HE CAME”

YARDS AND YARDS OF BUFFALO PLAID

I made a thing!  It’s H’s first birthday in a month and I decided to do a lumberjack theme.  It was easy to find most of the components, even his outfit, but hard to find something his mama would want to wear and feel comfortable in.  I’ve been wanting to make a shift/dress/shirt ever sinceContinue reading “YARDS AND YARDS OF BUFFALO PLAID”

WHEN THE RUBBER MEETS THE OUCH

I went to my first hard yoga class in the new year.  Like it was, hard.  It’s been so long since I’ve gone to a really challenging yoga class, it was like getting doused with cold water.  But it was good.  My mind achieved quiet because it was too busy focusing on not collapsing intoContinue reading “WHEN THE RUBBER MEETS THE OUCH”

WITH GRACE

I typed up a whole post about angst at work and then deleted it.  It was so viable when I was working on it, I felt so justified, so right.  Perhaps that was all that was needed to purge it, to write it out, I don’t know. I’m reading Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn andContinue reading “WITH GRACE”

HERE, THERE, AND EVERYWHERE

Since I had four days off last week, I decided to take a mini-road trip with my son.  I set my sights upon Lincoln City.  Most of the Oregon Coast is brand new territory for me, having just recently moved from C A L I F O R N I A.  We set out toContinue reading “HERE, THERE, AND EVERYWHERE”

WALKING AGAINST THE WIND AND DROPPING THINGS

I love that saying, “Walking against the wind,” because it so righteously depicts that feeling that the whole world is out to get me.  I know you’ve felt it too.  I drop my keys, I hit my head against the car door when I reach to pick them up, I spill coffee on my WHITEContinue reading “WALKING AGAINST THE WIND AND DROPPING THINGS”